We the People....

How intolerant we have become! We find faults in people so easily and are very hard to please. We hardly praise someone without a rider attached about some weak spot. The classic example is Gary Kirsten who's been 'favoured' to be our next coach. Hardly has his name been mentioned and our news channels have bared a 'derogatory' piece from his diary whilst touring India 10 years ago. It seems he's written about the lack of western luxury in this country or something like that which is very much true. I mean, we've got worse problems than that - we have dirty, narrow 'highways', we have people who spit on the road every 5 mins, we have autodrivers who can take even a native for a ride if allowed and we have people who can rape and kill anyone and everyone - and we ourselves curse all this and that's fine. But of course, Kirsten should've foreseen his future and praised our great 'culture' , potential and what else even in his dreams. Nonsense! But I wonder how he allowed his diary to be roaming all over the place!

I got reprimanded by my boss yet again for being lenient towards my 'boys'. I wonder how I can improve myself in this matter because there are various cases in front of me - one incapable, another laden with domestic problems, one more intelligent but lazy and yet another, a fresher. Tomorrow I'm supposed to be giving a hard speech.

Ever since my uncle has been admitted to hospital, I haven't spoken to my grandmother and I think I will be able to only when he at least starts walking. It sounds strange to me that in these difficult times I do not want to comfort her but I've spoken often with my uncle himself. But somehow I feel sorrier for my grandmother, I don't know why. I love her a lot!

The kid's school interview is on Monday....

Stretching ourselves....

New days are going to begin for us....the days of economy, of full-time parenting and hopefully, staying in our own house. The house is not over yet, work seems to be crawling, but it's a nice feeling when we step inside and when I dream of how I will decorate it and how beautiful it will be. Of course, the decorations will not be immediate as we seem to have bitten more than we can chew. Suddenly it's a tight situation now with so many things demanding money at the same time. We have never been in this situation so far since we started earning and I like it in some ways. I've always liked the feeling of saving money. In another 6 months we should be a little better, though.

Got an award on Friday and I'm feeling more guilty than happy about it. Sitting there and listening to all the praises they were showering on the awarded, I couldn't figure out that it was me. We had a tough time during the last release and there were better people there. Instead they give me for some silly thing, I don't know how to face a couple of people tomorrow. I worked hard and have been happy at times with myself but I don't think I needed it this time.

Have found a play-school for Rishi and I only hope he does not cry for many days. The lady in charge said it was common and kids get to like the atmosphere sooner than we think. Hope so! Wish we could skip this process of formal schooling at least for some years, like they used to do in old days. P is a very good teacher and I too have my own ideas. We can never dare to do such a thing, of course!

Called up S on her birthday and gave her a pretty big surprise. I should have been in better touch with her.

Bumpy Ride....

Overall a good day. One of our sites went live and accolades have been pouring in from all quarters. An unusual thing because most of the times we realize that someone has gone live only after we get a production issue. Anyway, support sites are only increasing by the day and I think we'll have a tough time soon. Older guys are moving out and it takes a while for the freshers to come up. I think one year is a decent time for even a fresher to pick up at least the gist of the module but I see a lot of struggle.

Had good time this Deepawali though almost two days went in traveling itself. The roads are as bad as always but Charmadi has a view even more beautiful than Shiradi Ghats. Tall peaks and deep valleys, the sight for about 7-8 kilometres is really breathtaking. Last time I saw it was way back in 9th Standard and I remember having been dumbstruck when I woke up early in the morning and saw the glorious sun shining on the heaven outside my window.

Saw Moodigere on the way and was nostalgic for a while thinking about our beloved Tejaswi who taught us to respect every insect, bird and plant on earth. How easily he explained the world to us and taught us to conserve our habitat! To me, nobody can be a better writer than him, at least in my native tongue.

The kid is coming here next month and I'm feeling feverish already with the possible permutations and combinations w.r.t his pre-school, school and associated things. Hope I can manage this fine. The biggest question of all - should I quit the job once more?

Rajyotsava.....

A relaxed day at home, thanks to Karnataka Formation Day. P is slogging in the office, trying to re-establish himself yet again. Tomorrow our new PM will take over and I'm only hoping there will not be any changes.

Didn't do anything other than getting our owner's house cleaned up. They called up yesterday and were worried that some hurricane swept Bangalore or something like that, going by the news on TV. I assured them that everything is safe and sound except for the roads which seem to melt at the sight of raindrops.

When I was a kid, this day used to be one of the eagerly awaited ones, for it used to be competition time once more. Elocution and Patriotic songs were the categories and I used to be first in elocution and second in singing, mostly. I think sometimes even third in singing when an odd boy used to come between me and Sharlet. But I more or less feel ashamed of my 'achievements' w.r.t elocution, they were always mugged-up by me and written by my father till 10th Standard. But of course, I won even in 11th, writing on my own. That was the last time I went to the stage for a speech I guess. My stage-fright is intact through all these years.

Actually, one time in my life, I used to have huge complex about my abilities to talk well, especially in a group of so-called sophisticated people. That was during my Engineering days amidst the hi-fi Bangalore public. I remember being in awe of so many people of this brand. I think Hyderabad did me good. It was the first big city for me but I managed on my own, shed the habit of thinking about what others think of me and so started treating everyone the same way, boy or girl, poor or rich, hi-fi or otherwise. I like myself more this way, definitely.

Last but not the least, Ganeshanna is getting married!! I can see that he's relieved and so are all of us!